Theories of life and death

20 year old Victoria is a student at the University of Malta and blogs at Vic-Tor-Eee-Yah. Her blogger profile states that she is easy-going and does'nt like to be judged or tested -"There is much more to me than what meets the eye. I always try to be friendly and unbiased in my thoughts." Inspired by the recent loss of her beloved grandmother - widow of former Maltese Finance Minister Guze Abela - she contemplates the 'concept of death' in her latest post:

I had a bad habit which I dont know how it developed, why or how it ended. I used to imagine my death scene. For example, I would be driving and my mind would run into an image where i swerved to the other side of the street and hit a tree. It happened quite often - say once a day. Then suddenly it never happened again. I never feared death. I was always into weird stuff and due to my father's work, I have grown in a surrounding where death was a normal event like anyother. Many of my extended family already left for the better world and I had to deal with death at a tender age. Death only affected me at the age of 18 where I created a phobia for driving. I already had two cousins who died at 18 in a traffic accident. I didnt want to be the third. In fact I started driving lessons pretty late and it took me ages to relax and drive. I still remember the day before my 19th birthday. I was sure that it was the last day of my life, then I turned 19 and I was soo relieved. lol. I laugh it off now because it is definately something unique to me - me and my crazy theories of life.Then I thought, am I the only one who thinks this way? Is there another fool that takes time to think on these ideas?